Push me out from the darkness,
To a sky that's colored blue.
Somewhere someone's finding happiness,
While I'm still here so hung up on you.

Nothing is real,
And I want you to know,
That I'm not alright.
When you tear open my chest,
I'll try not to flinch.
Won't make promises.
i Won't make promises.
You taught me that.
I'm still losing what's left of my self esteem.
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams.

The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most.
So I'll bite my tongue 'til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know.
The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else.
And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell.

A failed apology,
A day too late but now I see,
That all you really want's to see me dangle neck first from a tree.
But what would you need me for?
You've got friends galore.
and all you've ever been to me is a waste of time and nothing more.


I hate myself,
For loving you like this.
I hate myself for hating myself,
Just enough to love you.
Just enough to love you.


Pretty much explains exactly how I feel...